for love: the unseen

Your Guardian Angel Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

November 25, 2006

Alcohol made me voluble last night. There I was, able to say things on my mind. I’m a lover of freedom, stretching the possibilities which are authentic enough to express myself. I am experience. You got me by chance, maybe. But somehow, I was close to discover how a single chance could affect my life. It’s covering me with so much illusion, in essence, an abstract of vibrant colors. If I were experience itself, I want you to be the meaning, the answer. You brought a sense of determination that I can grow, be a better person, use my free will to love selflessly once again. From one act of bravery, I embark on the way towards my success in the realm of good things.

You know me. Not only because you listen, but with that good heart you’ve got, you refuse to say no when I want you to be there, to hold me, and to pay attention. You help me forget how it feels to be hurt. Like I was never hurt. From you, I only feel the tenderness of living, in the simplest way. Cheap thrills are part of the formula which build every day with ecstasy. What keeps me here with you? I want more. Loving you is driving me mad.

Promises can’t prolong the life of what I have with you. I’m sincerely hoping that I make sure each day, I give what you deserve to have. I don’t know if God made plans for us. One thing’s true, I want Him to be proud of crafting me by seeing the way I love you. It can only prove that I can be a great person when with you, recognizing you as a blessing. God’s not gonna be bad if on purpose, He’ll let you be with me, without end.